hmm...I'm not sure how ready I am for college and life. Its going to challenge everything I know and everything I believe. I know what I believe, but I cant say ive ever come under much fire for it. Things are just changing so fast all of a sudden. We're moving, i'm going to college, i'm leaving all my friends, i'm leaving a lot of hobbies behind, my Dad had a heart attack (he's ok though), my Grandparents got divorced, My grandpa wants to change his "name" (Grandaddy Gogo), i'm leaving all my leadership and ministry positions behind, and I dont know what is going on.
Lately ive been thinking about my future husband. I dont know who he is yet, but I really hope I'm not dreaming of someone who dosent exist. One of my biggest fears is to be the "cat lady" that people joke about: the friendless spinster living in her broken down apartment with all her kitties who she talks to. Today's media images are so discouraging. When I compare myself to celebritites and even lots of girls around me in daily life, I feel horribly inadequate and I start to wonder if anyone could ever find me attractive. But then I start daydreaming again of sharing each of ours first kiss on our wedding day, of doing fun things together, of cuddling on the couch after he gets home from work, of being a help and blessing to him, and serving together on the mission field; and I pray that he is somewhere out there. I cant wait to meet him. And I hope he dosent take too long to find me! But a little while is ok. The waiting is half the fun. ; )
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Wow there are some big changes happening...you could never tell by just looking at you!
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