Thoughts of a Foolish Dreamer

I decided to take a little down time today after worship. So, I went back to my dorm, thinking I was going to do some homework and go to bed early. Didn't happen. I decided that I really really wanted to go for a run (or at least attempt to run and then pant my way back into a slow jog..run jog run jog). I dont know...I just had a lot on my mind tonight and running seems to help get all the muck out of my head so I can think more clearly. On the way back to my dorm, I realized that I had taken my mp3 player, but not my keys or my phone, so I was locked out of my dorm. I just walked to the back patio behind my dorm and sat there for a good while, just thinking and praying. It was a really great time.
   I feel a lot more at peace with things. God is so good. It makes me wonder why I think I have to do it all myself when God is right there, asking us for our burdens.
   A few thoughts i'd like to share: So, a wonderful friend of mine tonight was speaking about how "we are God's." (please note the apostrophe...We are not equivalent to God) And I started thinking about that...We are God's, we belong to him. That is amazing! We have a master, a leader, a standard to fly. I think so many times when we think of ourselves, we give ourselves self-titles. "Oh, I am funny, or I am a good person." I am this, I am that. Blah Blah Blah. It goes on. We also give other people titles, so to speak. "They are prideful, they are boring, they are too popular for someone like me to talk to." We are ALL sinners. We (Christians) are ALL covered by the grace and love of God, which makes us equal. So really, all those titles we dish out are irrelevant. The most important and overarching source of identity we have is this : We are his (God's). So how can we rank ourselves above or below someone else? We are called to love.
Speaking of love. Another thought that sprang from the previous one...
Just think about the love of God. Mull it over, try to cram the fathomless depths of it into your mind. It is so much!!!! I guess thats why the Bible says "God is Love."
1 John 4:8

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
Since God IS love, you would think we would learn to be like him, in fact we are told to strive to be like Christ. If we are trying to be like Christ, and God is Love, then wouldn't it be safe to say that we should try to 'become love?' What if replace God's name with ours in that verse. I said it to myself to see how it sounded..."Heather is love." It just sounded to wrong. I know I am not love, nor could I ever totally be. I am so messed up and flawed in my love. God, I want to be more like you. I want to have so much genunine love for people that they immediately see you in me.. Make me like you.

Heather is not love, but I pray that becomes more true every single day.